That’s Diamond Head Crater lookout (a very cool climb through a military bunker built in 1908 and now used only by tourists).
This is the view of the ocean from that same lookout.
I’m back to my usual antics around here. Before Christmas, I had set my 2010 goals to doable, conquerable, and moderate. I come back after Christmas and I’m already trying to raise them up. Good grief!
Last night, hubby came to my rescue. I think I have my tendencies figured out now.
1. I tend to double or triple a goal in my head without actually realizing it. Ridiculous! I always have to be super. So I’ve cut these super goals in half or into thirds. Voila. I’m back to my original goal. This covers monthly income, words I write each day, books I read in a week.
2. I flog myself daily if I don’t stay on schedule. Oh dear. Days are meant to slide. A schedule can’t be adhered to as firmly as I think it should. Allow slide time. Allow time to pick up a book and read or to just stare out the window. I’ve said this before so many times. I do not listen to my own advice! This is to cover phone calls, web surfing, mindless television, and those times I just collapse into a chair and my brain won’t budge.
3. I can “forecast” myself accomplishing much faster than I actually accomplish. My brain crams too much in! It takes time to do each thing on my list: write a blog, organize a database, write an eZine, write a memoir scene. I read the list and suddenly put pressure on myself to do it all NOW. Enough of that. Quit forecasting, Trish, and just dive in.
4. I worry about my readers way too much. Sigh. This is a tendency I am determined to shake this year. You all are grown up and can handle just about anything I write on here. Otherwise you wouldn’t read it! I don’t have to helicopter parent you. I need to let it go. My readers’ responses cannot be predicted. That’s the beauty of writing! Need to remember this.
5. I have adult ADD. I love working on multiple projects rather than one, often at the same time. Studies show this actually increases body fat and slows brain synapses responses! Time to curb my ADD addiction (um, denial) and get back to reality.
Yes, I lowered the bar for myself for 2010 today. I may be doing this (not on the blog, mind you) again and again and again this year. My word for 2010 is real, remember. I’m determined to let this one word clean out my system and my habits and my idiosyncrasies. I hope to come out of 2010 a more real, more authentic, better version of myself.
Wish me luck!
{ 4 comments }
Girl, I hear ya! Last night I started being patient with myself. Just do one thing, then another, then another. Rest, watch Holiday Inn, lay down and do nothing. Mixed all up it’s quite a lovely, happy and productive life. I’m refusing to go full steam ahead any more – I’m too old.
Way to be REAL, darlin’!
Good for you! No more pressure. Excellent work. I love that movie! You are not too old, but there’s no reason. We pushed ourselves way too hard for years. Time to live deliberately.
I too have ADD………20,000 things at the same time. No wonder I”m fat!!!!! Wow. I also think about #4, but I’ve said to myself, relax. Don’t take the joy out of blogging…..and comment envy
#3 and 1 are also things I do…..It all comes down to – slowing down….. God help me. Have a blessed 2010.
My husband always says…lets continue , in spite of……what we’ve face, heard, suffered. It is well with you, and us!
Thank you, Kitchen Butterfly. It is so nice to hear from others who struggle with the same issues as I do!
It is well and let us continue! Amen!
Have a wonderful 2010.
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